The Little "Me"

Date : 30 August 2011

Occasion : Hari Raya

Location : Genting.

Today, my family planned for a mini get-away to one of the famous and most commercialized Highlands in Malaysia. GENTING.

To me, Genting is the crappiest place to be at.

Expensive and awful tasting food, boring, no new attractions and OLD.

Other than the few times I went when I was younger and of course the previous one with him, today was considered the worst day trip of my life. No kid I mean I've been dumped there many times by my mum and my aunts and my niece and I will start wondering around the place and this is no hyperbole but I can show you around even if I was blinded.

Me, being the cynical one in the car was trying every way I could to get my sister to turn the car around and head back down to KL.

Alas, nothing worked as expected and I had to blend in to the imaginary holiday mode I had planted in my brain.

"Melbourne, hmm. It's 23C here and in Melbourne it may drop as low as 10C, I need to plan my outfits properly. Hmm.. wake up and have English breakfast with the boy before heading to place hand in hand =D =D =D =D".

That distracted me for a while but then my sister was so annoyed with my I-HATE-THIS-PLACE-LETS-GO-BACK attitude she shot me with a remark. "What happened to you? The young MeiLin was so active and now you get bored of things so easily".

"Hmm" I thought to myself. Very true indeed.

I've lost passion for many things as I grew up and the ride back to Seremban was full with reminiscing the old times I had as a kid and how I thought I would end up by the age of 20.

So, here goes the history of the mini Me that I'm about to reveal in about

1....2.....3...!

Age 1-3 : I cant recall anything.lol. I probably spoke the first Mama and Papa and walked my way to age

5 -7 :

• Okay, I was never shy and was always so talkative. I was always active and I was a cry baby too. Every evening I would go out by 4pm to play with my neighbours and my mum would have to drag me home for dinner. Since I was quite timid in person (but never too shy to talk), a lot of other girls love to bully me because they think its fun. They would talk to me today and would not talk to me the next day. Being the cry baby, I'll cry everyday till they talk to me again.

• Even in kindergarten, I was still bullied and am quite ashame to say this but it was not senior-junior bully. We were from the same class, same age. We would exchange our belongings (I'll give her my lollipop and she'll give me her keychain) but she'll demand for her keychain back the next day.

• My parents told me I had a cut on my chin when I was younger cause I wanted to help my mum to cook in the kitchen when I was erm 4?

• Always had a thing for a hair stylist and I used to style my Barbie Doll's hair. I even cut my own eye lashes before. Heehee.

• I used to suck the bottom of the chair cause to me it tasted good back then. LOL!

• I love to question my sister and I use to think that I was adopted or my real parents were from Mars. Thanks to my sister who used to incept stories about me being the weird one in the family.

• Always, always wanted a best friend that will last for a lifetime.

• Had a vivide imagination since young and I love to day dream a lot.

• Always wanted to be a singer and would stand on the chair and sing to my "crowd" which consist of the floor tiles and the tables.

• Always wanted to be anything but just ordinary. =)

So what happened to the old me? Did she just grew up or grew out of it.

I have to start to find for myself cause lately I've been doing everything for everyone else. Doubt they'll notice it though cause MeiLin is always out there taking care of your feelings and dinner.

Make sure you have a good meal or wish you good morning, take you out to buy groceries and at the same time filling myself with other people's business and emotions that my troubles only comes at night.

And when it does, it hits me like a train my brain.

Where is that old gleeful Little MeiLin I once knew?

I have to find a piece of my old self back to continue being the person I used to be.

I have to.

xoxo,

MeiLin