Soul sister

A week back, I was at the airport unwillingly sending another love of mine away.

This time, I was not affected immediately nor before the event.

It happened a week after she left.

She?

Nope, I'm still dating the same old boy.

My best friend.

You know? The one I have been posting about non-stop since the time I created this blog.

It is official to say now, Vanessa has left the country leaving me and the rest of my Seremban Gang. Her decision to leave was sudden as it was only July she told me about her plans to further her studies in Sunderland. Being the good friend, support was the only thing I could do for her and also giving her some humble opinions of mine and doing things that I should have done while she was around.

You see, I haven been spending much time with her for a year already.

Now when we meet, it was always a start of a new topic but never a continuation like we used to have.

It was almost there, awkward but close, smooth but yet rough at some edges. Things were not like before.

Talk was fun but not expressive, hang out was exciting but forgettable.

Fact is, I'm writing this now to express my regret and I pity myself for feeling this way seeing that she has been my soul sister that has always been there and with me.

Not to mention the person who drove me around when we skip school together, someone who comes over in the middle of the night to talk till 4am and then falls asleep in my room.

The person who goes dim sum with me and karaokes with me alone singing songs from our favourite band.

She was like another sister I never had and we learned from each other at a very young age to try to achieve the "better person" we always spoke about.

I will NOT let time run its course. I will try to mend this and keep this as how I imagined it.

I remembered I told her once that when we grow up, we'll have english tea every now and then and I'll bake for her family and watch the kids play together.

Things may not happen as I stated above but I will not let things go out of hand to. I'll try to hold it till she's back and I can apologize to her for not picking up the birthday call that she wanted to make so badly to me this year.

I'm sorry sayang.

love,

MeiLin